I Need More "Me" Time

I haven't written in so long. I've been so completely busy with life and it's daily occurrences. I've missed writing, because it's what I love to do. I've pushed away so much that I admire, not just writing, but all of my many hobbies. I have a strong passion for music and decided to learn to play the piano after receiving a keyboard last Christmas. Time and concentration went into all my many practices but eventually I became unmotivated. I felt like I wasn't getting anywhere with the art when all I needed was more practice and dedication. I give up too easily, I'll admit it's a downfall and I want to change that about myself. I want to learn to stick to what I love to do, keep motivated, and believe that I can succeed. I have it in me, I know I do. So I'm going to start making time for myself. Even if it's just a few minutes out of my day, or a couple hours out of my week. I deserve that.

In My Place- Coldplay: Annotation

To me, this song is initially asking for forgiveness from another person. If you read through the lyrics, you can probably figure that yourself too. People do bad things, some more wrong than others. And in the long run, you may come to a realization that you just want to recieve forgiveness for those very past decisions.

"In my place, in my place
Were lines that (1)I couldn't change I was lost, oh yeah
(2)I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed I was lost, oh yeah.."

(1)You cannot change the past although sometimes, of course, you wish you could. Unfortunately life doesn't have an undo button. A positive, however, is that you can learn from what you do. Learn to not make those same mistakes again in the future, and you'll become more wise.
(2) There comes a time when you completely cross the line too far. After, you later understand that you should have took it on with more caution. You may even become lost, and unsure where to turn next.

"(Yeah)
(3)How long must you wait for it?(Yeah)
(4)How long must you pay for it?(Yeah)
How long must you wait for it?
Oh for it.."

(3)How long will you have to wait for that forgiveness? It could be as short a time as a couple days, or as long as several years. And if it does exceed to that length of time, you can come to a conclusion that maybe that person is unwilling to forgive you.
(4)Through waiting all that time, your the one who has to pay for it. You know that what you did, is all you. It's no one elses responsibility but your own.

"I was scared, I was scared
(5)Tired and under prepared
But I'll wait for it
(6)If you go, if you go
And leave me down here on my own
Then I'll wait for you"

(5)You arn't always prepared for the upcoming events. And there may even be times when you think you are, but find yourself mistaken. This can grow tiresome to most.
(6) No one wants to be lonely, or that is, most people. Nor do they want to be left by someone who has a strong significance in their life. That's one of the hardest things to imagine in my point of view. Someone so special to you, gone. And to question yourself whether they will come back or not.

"(Yeah)
How long must you wait for it?
(Yeah)
How long must you pay for it?
(Yeah)
How long must you wait for it?
Oh for it"

"Singing ooh, ooh
(7)Please, please, please
Come back and sing to me, to me, me
(8)Come on and sing it out now, now
Come on and sing it out to me, me
Come back and sing"

(7) Desperately pouring your heart out now. You can only say this so much.
(8)Never be afraid to give your all to someone if you feel that they deserve it. They may listen, or choose to shut you out. You can only hope they find enough kindness in their heart to give in.

"In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
(9)I was lost oh yeah
Oh yeah"

(9) You may find yourself still lost after it all. That person may or may not come back into your life. But you know in your heart, you did everything you could to fix it. You'll feel stronger knowing this alone. And that should be enough.

There have been multiple situations where someone can grow out of your life for some time, atleast for me. Most of the time they come back around. But for some, I know it's quite the opposite and I feel for those individuals. Because I know I wouldn't want to lose anyone over something that was so temporarily wrong. If this was you, then just know everything will come back around to being normal. You can live without someone whether you want to believe it or not. You are stronger than you make yourself to be.

Five Songs That Will Get You Through Life's Obstacles

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It seems that every day I hear yet another song where the lyrics stand out to me. I love when there comes a line in a song that I can relate to from past experiences or even a situation that may be occurring at that very moment. As happy of a person I am, I can say there is a broken past behind me. Music has always been there to reassure me fortunately, and I'm so incredibly grateful for that. Below are a few songs I’ve found that have gotten me through it all.

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Turning Tables-  "So I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no I won't ask you, you to just desert me.." Adele

Adele speaks strongly in this particular song. She's basically telling someone that she will not allow him to hurt her under any circumstance. I can relate to these lines because I don't allow anyone to bring me down mentally under any circumstance. Sometimes words hurt, but I try my absolute best not to show it. And I won't ever push someone away, but ignore their negativity to where they may leave on their own. I won't walk out of someone’s life, I refuse. But if they choose to do so, that's their decision. I can learn to live without them, and it will only help me become a stronger individual.

The Scientist- "Questions of science, science and progress, Do not speak as loud as my heart.." Coldplay

I adore this song. Not only do the words come alive for me, but the music itself just warms my heart. It's one of those songs in which you realize that life isn't easy, and you can't expect it to be in the world that we're in. The song can be interpreted multiple ways; it just depends on what your situation is. For the most part one notices the words to define a failing relationship. This could be about another man or woman, a father or mother, or even a friend that may be slowly drifting away. There is nothing that can speak as loud as the heart, like they state. No amount of paper, research, or equation that can possibly out speak the heart.

Maybe-“All you have to do is hold me. And you’ll know and you’ll see just how sweet it can be, if you’ll trust me, love me, let me, maybe, maybe.” Kelly Clarkson

This is a song that I can relate to. I’m not just an average person, no one is really. Everyone is unique in their own way. You shouldn’t judge someone within the first day of meeting them, but take time to figure out who they are. “Maybe” goes right along with what I’m saying. You are who you make yourself to be, and when someone comes around, hopefully they see that. People should see every part of you and not just one feature. There’s so much more behind just what they see.

Call me- “Call me a sinner, call me a saint. Tell me it’s over, I’ll still love you the same. Call me your favorite, call me the worst. Tell me it’s over I don’t want you to hurt. It’s all that I can say, so I’ll be on my way.” Shinedown

There are rough times in life where you’re unsure what your next move should be. Or you may have made mistakes that you wish you could take back. You may even have difficult situations occurring with your relationship. This song represents those exact moments. Think of me what you will. I could be a great person in your eyes, or even the worst. But either way it will not affect what I think of you. Just because you dislike a feature I have, or something I do, doesn’t mean I’m going to try and find a flaw in you as well. I just accept your opinion and keep it at that. It’s all I know and been raised to do. Of course if you compliment me, I’ll greatly appreciate it and I can give that back in return.

Through Glass-“When something like a soul becomes initialized and folded up like paper dolls and little notes, you can't expect a bit of hope.” Stone Sour

Imagine your soul like a piece of paper. Once you fold that paper so much, trying to unfold and hide the damage is about impossible. Whatever may have happened to you will not just go away without remembrance; there will be small crinkles that remind you. I’m sure there are many people out there that have had something negative said to them, and it hurts. You want the emotions to go away, but it’s hard to control them. This song helps people understand that you are not alone through this, even though you may feel that way inside.

Casey Anthony wants to adopt?!

I don't find it right for a monster to adopt a precious child. Before I go into why Casey Anthony shouldn't adopt, I'll give a basic wrap up of the case for those of you who are unsure about everything that happened. Caylee Anthony, who was two years old reported missing in Orlando, Florida in July of 2008. Her remains were found later that year in December not too far from her house. Her mother, Casey Anthony, was tried for first degree murder but somehow turned out innocent. She was guilty of several lies, one was to a police officer. I started keeping up with the Casey Anthony case toward the beginning of the summer. Whenever she was released from prison, I was in complete rage and shock at the same time. I just couldn't get it through my head that this murderer was getting off for the crime she committed. You could see the sly smirk on Anthony's face when the judge announced she was free. Why was she so surprised and happy to be getting out of the situation if she didn’t do it? If she was truly innocent, she wouldn't have shown that surprise in her face. There are little to few people that actually have faith in her and believe that she did nothing, the other 80 to 90 percent of Americans are not that stupid.



And now I hear that this criminal wants to adopt a child? Has she completely lost her mind? That woman does not deserve to mother another child. She'll end up ruining his/her innocent, little life; just as she did to her daughters. An article from Daily Mail, states that Anthony said, "I've thought about adopting, which even sounds weird to me saying it, but there are so many children that deserve to be loved." She was also found writing letters to a man in prison. These letters contained they were planning on having a child when she was released. She doesn't have the time for a kid right now, obviously, if the one little girl she had is not here anymore.



There are several reasons why Anthony should NOT adopt a child. Now, I do not know for a FACT that Anthony killed her daughter, Caylee, but if you connect the dots, it's crystal clear. There is so much leading to the assumption. An article from Csmonitor informs every one of her tattoo. When her daughter reported missing, two weeks later Casey got a tattoo reading, "Bella Vita." In Italian this means, "Beautiful Life". Why in the hell would a mother get such a tattoo when her two year old daughter has been missing?! And when she scheduled the tattoo, she told the artist that Caylee was with her nanny that day and she would bring her to the July 19th appointment. LIES. Prosecutors mentioned that Caylee was already dead, and had been for a month when she said that. She didn't even report her little girl missing until a month later! What a horrible mother. In that time she spent partying, with her boyfriend. She lied several times to her mother, saying Caylee was at Universal Studios, Sea World, and such. I've read that she now has time to go to the Spa, and get her nails done. All things she couldn't do before with a child. Sickening..



If you did more research on the case, or if you have kept up with it, you would probably agree with me that she is very suspicious. The people of the jury even said it made them sick to announce her not guilty. I'm not trying to tell people what she did, because, who knows, she may not have killed her daughter. I just don't think it's right for someone to get away with murder if they did do it. Then on top of murder, adopt another child, to do it all over again.

Respect Music For What It Is.

Music is my motivation. There are people out there that feel the same way with music as I do. On the other hand, there are people who don't respect all music, but only the kind they personally enjoy. In my opinion, people should respect all genres of music. They may not be a huge fan of all the types of music out there, but atleast give the musicians kudos for doing what they do.

I understand if "screamo" isn't your cup of tea, or if your not the biggest fan of "oldies", and so on. But I don't find it right to talk negatively about what they do. I've heard some say "That music is a disgrace." or, "How do young kids listen to this nonsense?!" How about just respecting the music for what it is. And if you don't like a style of music, just don't listen to it. It's that easy. I'm sure there are people that don't necessarily like they kind of music you choose to listen to. Everyone has their own particular taste. But I just don't see the point in bringing an artist and/or band down when their just trying to rise up. Instead of insulting the band or artist, how about just giving constructive critisism? They would much more appreciate some advice, then getting brought down by the rude and heartless comments. Just let them know what it is your not liking, or what could possibly be improved in what they do. And who knows, maybe they will take your word into consideration.

Musicians spend a lot of time into what they do, whether you believe it or not. And in someway, the music they write means something important to them. I've known musicians that spend several hours a day working hard composing lyrics, and music to flow along perfectly. They have to go over songs so many times to make it have the unique style it does. It takes alot of courage too, for them to get up in front of a crowd and play. So shouldn't they get atleast some credit? It's just sad how artists and bands have to constantly worry on how the crowd will react because of all the negativity. But in all honnesty, they deserve postive feedback, or like i said earlier, constructive critisim.

Overall, my point is that music is too sacred to be unnaccepting with. Musicians deserve atleast some respect and appreciation for what their doing. I'm certain, that you wouldn't want anyone to bring you down in what you love doing, so why bring them down. Treat others how you would want to be treated. That's the way I think of it.